Thursday

"Too bad people don’t fall in love at the same pace, at the same time, for the same reasons, and it’s too bad that those emotions don’t move simultaneously. But each bit of madness moved at its own pace, one not dependent on the pace of anyone else. It wasn’t like tandem skydiving, where you were connected as you fell, where you were forced to fall at the same rate and use the same parachute. Falling in love is a solo act. I knew that, I just learned the hard way. You just jump and hope that your parachute will open. Sometimes, you look up and realize that you were falling by yourself, the object of your desire still on the plane, not interested in jumping and watching you descend into that scary place alone."


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Love is beautiful. I admire my Heavenly Father more and more when I feel how trying the world can be, and how there is so much room for love to push my life. to grow my life.

"if you love someone thing, set it free.

if it comes back, its yours

if it doesnt come back, it never was"

-Richard Bach

We came through the veil, set free, for our love to be tried.

"because you cannot know yourself

or what youd really do

with all your power

what would you do?"

-The Flaming Lips

Here we are in life, learning who we are, learning what we will do with the power that we have. Will we use it for personal gain? for pleasure? to work? to play? to raise up those we love? will we bury our talents, or seek to increase them?

The gospel of Jesus Christ, the testimony given by God through the Holy Ghost, reveals to us the test of life. the plan of salvation, and how we can attain a fullness of joy. Without this revelation we are left to wonder our purpose, but with it the way is so much clearer.

If God revealed to you His existence, told you where to find His truth, how to have His word, how to feel His love, showed you how great His blessings were for you, and how sore any other path would leave you, would you leave everything you knew to follow Him?

Would you continue to put your time and effort into activities that you knew had no worth?

I ask this of myself every day. I have asked myself this every day since God did reveal his existence to me three years ago. I have left much behind, and there is more that I know must follow. But I will follow Him and continue to try as hard as I can.

Someone asked me if this was like running into a brick wall repeatedly, hitting the end of your will, falling down, getting back up and running again to the end of your rope, until you're bloody, raw, and quake at the thought of getting back up again.

It is indeed like this. I have run into the brick wall of addiction for years. but eventually the rope snaps, the bricks fall, and you find yourself on the other side. shaken, but standing. And the love you feel then, the gratitude you feel for your Heavenly Father is an awesome thing.